This crazy gift called life!

My smile will never be as necessary to others as yours. Everything I would give up to ensure your happiness continues to bless the world with its presence. Fading into the background, I will quietly watch you shine. The glory of your light is breathtaking from my place in the shadows, It bathes my chilled skin in warmth. I memorize every cherished nuance of you, to sustain me through the loneliness ahead. The fringes are where I will always belong, I would only dim your glow. Projecting every drop of stardust-laced love I've left to give, I silently whisper, "Shine for me, my baby. Shine."

The silence echoes in my emptiness,  No more will I hear the sound that so brightened my day. I always knew nothing could flourish near me, Except the ghosts of my dreams.  They frolic gleefully through the  broken, silent chambers of my heart. No roses will ever bloom in this barren garden,  Every tender petal that dares try,       is choked by the briars of life. Every unfortunate thing that falls within my touch, Destined, from then onward, to eventually crumble to dust.  I had hoped, just once, that something I touched would remain untainted. The cold isolation filling my chest filters out to permeate my skin. I'm really not quite sure if  I will ever truly feel warm again. How is it possible to breath with this gaping chasm in my chest? Wrapping my arms tightly around me, Vainly trying to squeeze all of my broken pieces inside of me again. 

I feel your absence so keenly today Like half of my heart is missing.   It could never be safer than it is with you but, The emptiness aches to my very bones at the moment.  I long to press my cheek to your chest And fall into serenity at the sound of your heartbeat beneath my ear. To feel your breath fill your body And your exhales brush lightly across my hair. To wrap my arms around your waist And feel your strength beneath my fingertips.  Knowing I will feel the tension ebb from your body As we are reconnected once again. If ever asked where I would most love to live... My reply would always be "in my love's arms" There is no destination in the universe more essential to me.

The feel of your presence  Slides along my skin, Like a well-loved quilt Enveloping me in comfort. The smoke-blue of your eyes Hold every dream I have ever wished for,  And some I've yet to even fathom.  Your laughter leaving me willing To empty a library of books, So that I might hear it's beloved sound Echoing around me. Your smile enough to make me Forever rest my pen,  So that I might have more time To be beguiled by it. Your kiss like the cusp Of a thunderstorm, An intoxicating mix of Ferocity and serenity, Which, unfailingly,  Ensnares me. Your words like a novel  I am unable to put down, Each page drawing me  Ever deeper than the last. The strength of your body Like a Celt warrior of old, I would gladly bow to my fate, If chosen to be yours. The interlacing of our bodies, A symphony. Limbs bowing and resting To the sounds of alto and bass, Until peaking upon a magnificent crescen...

The lack of your presence  is a gaping void in my chest.  Overwhelming my heart today more than most. I cannot seem to turn loose of it.  Even my darkness seeks you... Adores you and is restless in your absence  My soul constantly seeking yours, so often, I fear it may forget its natural host.  Your nearness is the only thing  that will calm my mind,  Any other but your touch  drives me deranged inside.  I am without my anchor tonight And I am bereft.  

Insecurity crushes my chest. My eyes dampen with unshed tears. For so many, feelings fade if not within eyesight. Will it be easier to not see the love inevitably disperse? Will my heart just shatter in place when met with the first void glance? The thought of your blue eyes vacant of the fire that consumes me steals my breath. I fear I may freeze to my core without it. Never again being the cause of your enchanting smile... my mind can barely process it. Sadly, my love is irrevocable. My soul has chosen and, you are its mate. Loving you will be my eternity. I always knew you were more than I ever deserved to receive, but, I had hoped life could overlook stealing my happiness just this once.

Watching the light fade from your eyes is like slowly dying,  Especially knowing you don't realize I can see it happening  And wondering if you have even felt it fading, yet. Already missing the way your face softens when you look at me.  That smile that steals my breath will be next to exit.  Oh, how I will miss those stolen touches and secret glances.  I don't think my heart will ever cease racing next to you... Though, now, an edge of pain will accompany it, too.  Knowing, late at night, that I am now alone in my dreams  You will no longer linger with me there... Our adventures have ended.  My nights now will merely circle every beautiful memory we've shared... Until I awake brushing away tears.  Knowing, from the beginning, I never deserved your love, Is cold solace for my aching heart. Melancholia steals over me as I sadly tuck my soul away Into the box where it should have stayed. I wonder if I should ...