Socially Inept

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Never learning to mind my words,
Forgetting to consider if they would injure or offend. 
Abruptly ended conversations 
Making me pick apart every syllable,
Wondering if I've inadvertently crossed a hurtful boundary
Once again. 
Struggling so violently with what is publicly acceptable 
To the point of feeling socially handicapped sometimes. 
My ideas, words, and humor...
Are either before their time or 
Will never see their time.
The constant frustration of
Effortlessly helping others blossom, 
Yet, being unable to reach those goals myself.
How can one person 
Be so socially inept?
I should be quarantined 
To an undisclosed location
Where the only one to be verbally injured 

Is me.

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