This crazy gift called life!

What does it mean when you would do almost anything to be in the presence of someone? When you would push your body to its physical limits just to be a few miles nearer... And you don't care if pieces of you give out because it was worth every step. Embracing insomnia because it lets you feel your connection with their soul a few hours longer... Almost feeling like being able to watch them sleep. Feeling like an addict waiting for your next dose When you are apart. Your mind refusing to quiet  Unless in their presence. When their sadness makes you unbearably melancholy,  and the urge to fix it gnaws at you until they smile once again. Their thoughts and ideas are the only ones that matter anymore, Everyone else is just background noise. When their touch is the only thing that can bring your stubborn body to arousal, So intense you feel almost drunk on it. What does it mean when you know, if they left, You wouldn't die, you would simply cease ex...

Trying so desperately to mask it but, I miss you so terribly. Your fingertips on my skin, Arms holding me close. The scent of your neck. Your soft, firm lips tasting mine. The strength of your body  surrounding me. Well-worded phrases  that nearly drive me from my mind. Smiles that create their own  sunshine in my day. Your voice that  slides like velvet along my skin.  A gaze that makes my heart stutter  before finding its beat again. The feeling I get when  the words "I love you" slip from your lips. I so dearly want to be close... I miss my home.

I am slowly fading toward insanity... There really cannot be any other explanation. The emotions and inner voices are  at war inside my mind... Until I'm sure I must go quite mad from it. My head aches so desperately... I know what will quiet my mind but, It is beyond my reach. So, letting my inner voices to their bickering, I quietly decide which color of straight jacket would compliment me best.

You are missing from me. I feel your absence in every   cell of my frame. I long to smile into your handsome face, And wonder in awe at your crystal blue gaze, Overflowing with the purest feeling  to ever touch my soul... Your Love. You are my greatest need in this life... Without you, there is no me... I would go through life incomplete. You are my love... Without you I cannot breathe.

My smile will never be as necessary to others as yours. Everything I would give up to ensure your happiness continues to bless the world with its presence. Fading into the background, I will quietly watch you shine. The glory of your light is breathtaking from my place in the shadows, It bathes my chilled skin in warmth. I memorize every cherished nuance of you, to sustain me through the loneliness ahead. The fringes are where I will always belong, I would only dim your glow. Projecting every drop of stardust-laced love I've left to give, I silently whisper, "Shine for me, my baby. Shine."

The silence echoes in my emptiness,  No more will I hear the sound that so brightened my day. I always knew nothing could flourish near me, Except the ghosts of my dreams.  They frolic gleefully through the  broken, silent chambers of my heart. No roses will ever bloom in this barren garden,  Every tender petal that dares try,       is choked by the briars of life. Every unfortunate thing that falls within my touch, Destined, from then onward, to eventually crumble to dust.  I had hoped, just once, that something I touched would remain untainted. The cold isolation filling my chest filters out to permeate my skin. I'm really not quite sure if  I will ever truly feel warm again. How is it possible to breath with this gaping chasm in my chest? Wrapping my arms tightly around me, Vainly trying to squeeze all of my broken pieces inside of me again. 

I feel your absence so keenly today Like half of my heart is missing.   It could never be safer than it is with you but, The emptiness aches to my very bones at the moment.  I long to press my cheek to your chest And fall into serenity at the sound of your heartbeat beneath my ear. To feel your breath fill your body And your exhales brush lightly across my hair. To wrap my arms around your waist And feel your strength beneath my fingertips.  Knowing I will feel the tension ebb from your body As we are reconnected once again. If ever asked where I would most love to live... My reply would always be "in my love's arms" There is no destination in the universe more essential to me.

The feel of your presence  Slides along my skin, Like a well-loved quilt Enveloping me in comfort. The smoke-blue of your eyes Hold every dream I have ever wished for,  And some I've yet to even fathom.  Your laughter leaving me willing To empty a library of books, So that I might hear it's beloved sound Echoing around me. Your smile enough to make me Forever rest my pen,  So that I might have more time To be beguiled by it. Your kiss like the cusp Of a thunderstorm, An intoxicating mix of Ferocity and serenity, Which, unfailingly,  Ensnares me. Your words like a novel  I am unable to put down, Each page drawing me  Ever deeper than the last. The strength of your body Like a Celt warrior of old, I would gladly bow to my fate, If chosen to be yours. The interlacing of our bodies, A symphony. Limbs bowing and resting To the sounds of alto and bass, Until peaking upon a magnificent crescen...

The lack of your presence  is a gaping void in my chest.  Overwhelming my heart today more than most. I cannot seem to turn loose of it.  Even my darkness seeks you... Adores you and is restless in your absence  My soul constantly seeking yours, so often, I fear it may forget its natural host.  Your nearness is the only thing  that will calm my mind,  Any other but your touch  drives me deranged inside.  I am without my anchor tonight And I am bereft.