Resignation

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I am slowly fading toward insanity...
There really cannot be any other explanation.
The emotions and inner voices are 
at war inside my mind...
Until I'm sure I must go quite mad from it.
My head aches so desperately...
I know what will quiet my mind but,
It is beyond my reach.
So, letting my inner voices to their bickering,

I quietly decide which color of straight jacket would compliment me best.

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