This crazy gift called life!

The nights without you Stretch before me... Interminably long.  Replaying your words in my mind, Reliving our conversations. Aching to softly stroke your warm skin with my fingertips.  To feel your your cheek pressed Against my chest.  Wanting to look into your soft, blue eyes Full of love for me. To softly kiss those perfect lips, Feeding my addiction.  My mind keeps quietly repeating one phrase... I love you, Mine. 

What have I done?  Was my anxiety too much? I should have kept them hidden  Far away from discovery.  Your sweet words have vanished  From sight. I have searched frantically to find you again. Watching sadly as my research returns empty. Wracked with confusion,  My soul feels so lost.  Frightened to reach for our tether Fearing I might find it gone.  A heart that was so buoyant  Now deathly silent.  Rethinking each word I said... Wondering which wrong path I took.  So many thoughts I should not  Have whispered... They circle viscously in my mind... A billboard of my brokenness.  Staring into the mirror  despondently wondering Why can I not just be normal?