Numb

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Trying desperately to stay numb...
To think only in minute increments...
The mere basics to function.
Counting each step...
Each breath...
To distract my attention.
Knowing a night wrapped in
Lonely thoughts of you awaits me...
An endless playback of us...
Of missing what I wish for so dearly.
My tired soul curls around my aching heart...
Knowing, eventually, my body
Must become too exhausted to hurt.
Pulling myself back to the daylight,
I continue quietly filling my space in the world...
Mask in place.
Every chance meeting of your soft, blue eyes...
Shattering my numbness to dust
Proof to my sad soul that
You will always be the only one for me.

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