Trash

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Not your touch...
My body is screaming in protest.
The foreign fingertips burning
Like acid...
Surely melting my skin from my body
As penance for my betrayal.
The invasion leaving my soul traumatized
Each time.
Curled tightly inward
Shaking and nauseated.
Aching to wash my betrayal
From my skin...
To watch the feelings of worthlessness
Circle down the drain.
Knowing each time the scars on my soul
Thicken more and, eventually,
Will suffocate me.
Fearing, one day,
You will see me for what I know I am...
Trash...
I am worthless trash
Each time I must allow another to touch me.
Repeatedly tainting the most precious
Gift in my world...
Your Love.

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